Saturday, September 30, 2006


Almost everyone I work with is showing cold symptoms and I seem to be having them too. My head feels full and I can't stop coughing or blowing my nose. To make matter worse, I'll probably end up working at least 10 hours or so today. The timing couldn't be worse.

Is it October yet?

Friday, September 29, 2006

good grief, long day

11 hours. That's how long I was at the office today.


oh well, it's almost over. tomorrow I will need to go into the office in a morning for a little while, there are a few loose ends that I need to tie up. I should have some time in the afternoon to chill out at home before our event tomorrow night but I'm not 100% sure that will happen. I'm not feeling stressed though, just sort of tired. I'm looking forward to it being over. One of my colleagues is the MRP for the event, she's feeling the stress in a huge way. I know that everything will work out just fine but still, you worry, right?

the entire month of September has been kind of crazy for me, between it being the busiest month of the year (no kidding!) at work, and Joe dying in the middle of it, I haven't really had much time to catch my breath.

October should be much better, I just keep thinking about that. September will soon be over and we can all sleep again!!

Thursday, September 28, 2006

olde tyme gas pump

olde tyme gas pump
Originally uploaded by Julep67.
It's been so dark outside all day today that our "hey it's dark so we better kick in" lights on the deck were on shortly after 6 p.m.

it's been raining all day too which is kind of a bummer, it was chilly too. I am still wearing sandals though (well not right now but to wokr today), I don't want to give up on them quite yet.

today's blog photo was taken in the city of my birth. we stopped off there to get gas on the way home from Toronto over the weekend. I wish we could have pumped gas from this particular pump, and paid the same prices that folks paid for it when it was still in use. Unfortunately, we had to use the regular pumps and pay 2006 prices for it.

On a completely unrelated note, I was interested to read about the "Mama Mona Lisa" business. I think it's really cool that they were able to see more detail on the painting, so much so that they could see the type of fabric in the garment she wore. Part of it seems like yet another "celebrity pregnancy" story but I found it to be neat, all the same.

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

storm windows

have you ever heard of anyone in this part of the world putting up storm windows in September?? me neither

yesterday, I get into the office and it's stuffy as hell. I open the window, turn on my little fan and sit at my desk. it's still stuffy as hell. where is the breeze?? I was just outside, I know it's out there, why isn't it inside? then I look closely at the window and realize that the inside window is open but the screen has been replaced with storm windows.


the company that does the windows obviously didn't want to have to be doing this when it was colder than 20 degrees celsius outside.

who the hell thought that was a good idea? I had to turn the air conditioning on. ridiculous. of course, we're supposed to have the mildest winter ever this year, so we better get the storms on because goodness knows, when we have that one really cold day (four months from now) in January, we'll be glad we had them.

the rest of the time, we'll just run the a/c.

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

autumn sky

autumn sky
Originally uploaded by Julep67.
Today I returned to work, it was a long day. It started at an event at 6:30 a.m. I made it through the whole day though, not bad huh?

Admittedly, I'm still moving a little slower than I would care to and I'm not going to be doing any heavy lifting anytime soon but I had a really good at work. It was busy but I feel like I accomplished something.

Talking to folks about Joe was harder than I thought it would be. With folks who I'm not really close to, it was easy. I had a little "moment" though, leaving a message on someone's voice mail. They were really nice about it, and I know I only got so upset about it because I genuinely care about them. I realize that you can never really prepare for someone's death, no matter how long an illness they had, or how sick they were. When it actually, finally, happens, it's still somewhat of a surprise.

After work, we went out to get some groceries. I say "we" but really it was Mark. I wrote the list and waited in the car while he shopped. He's a good shopper, he even found us a deal on dishwasher detergent. yay Mark!

The rest of the week promises to be really busy but it's okay, it's probably good actually.

Monday, September 25, 2006



I'm up, I'm sipping coffee, I'm still crooked as hell.

Admittedly, I feel slightly better than I did last night but it still hurts to walk and I can barely sit up in the chair right now. I think I have to get back to bed and call in sick. I really didn't want to do this, I need to get back into the office (we have a big thing happening on Saturday) but I am worried that if I drag myself into work, that I'll be worse tomorrow and be totally screwed for the weekend.

Stress sucks, doesn't it folks? arrgghhh!!

Sunday, September 24, 2006


last night, we were in bed by 8 p.m.

Up until we got home yesterday, we were holding ourselves together pretty well. Being home though, around familiar stuff, around Joe's stuff (a lot of his things were still in his room here at the house) was difficult.

When we got home, there was a beautiful card from my folks waiting for us, reading that made us both cry. Later on, a huge bouquet of flowers from the girls I work with arrived, that made us cry. Of course, I kind of laughed a little as we lit this candle that the funeral home gave us and placed it next to the flowers. In Judaism flowers are not really appropriate when someone dies. I said to Mark that they sort of represented the compromise that Joe made when he decided to move here to be with us. His life became a little more "goy-ish" than it ever had, he even spent Christmas with us at my mum & dad's.

I expect that the next few days will be difficult too. At some point, we need to go over to the nursing home and pack up his things. We had hoped to do that today but my back is completely screwed right now, well my hip really. My body deals with stress by having my hip seize up. This stops me from being able to sit comfortably or walk straight up. It's quite inconvenient and painful and I'm hoping that I'll be better tomorrow because I need to go to work. I'm just grateful that this didn't happen until after we got home (it started a bit last night). Mark says that it's just my body dealing with me holding everything in until the funeral was over and all the stuff we needed to do was done. I think he's right. Hopefully, sleep and ibuprofen will help get me sorted out. I don't want to miss another day of work.

Saturday, September 23, 2006

back home

we got home a little while ago.

I can't remember when I've been so tired. the funeral was yesterday morning and it was really nice, I think that Joe would have liked it, he definitely would have liked the rabbi. Fortunately, friends of ours had a connection to this fellow. The rabbi is married to their neice. He was a great guy, young, cool and very respectful of the way we wanted things to go. The whole process was made a lot easier by him.

Right now, I'm feeling really beaten up and tired. My whole body aches and I'm anxious to get into bed. Is 6 p.m. too early to go to bed?

Thursday, September 21, 2006


Joe passed away last night, about 2 hours after we left him. I think he kept fighting and hanging on as long as he could hear our voices, at least that is what the nurse told us could happen.

In an hour or so, we're heading to Toronto for his funeral. He has to be buried tomorrow morning, before rosh hashanah starts.

thanks for all of your good thoughts everyone. see you in a couple of days.

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

still here

kingston general hospital
Originally uploaded by Julep67.
Joe's still hanging on.

At 5:15 p.m. today though, we really thought that he died. Mark even went to get the nurse but by the time he was back in the room, Joe was breathing again.

It's still a waiting game, he could go any minute or he could go in a few hours.

It's been a really long day, sitting with him, but I'm glad that we did it. We're heading off to bed now, no matter what happens, tomorrow will be another long day.

don't get old kiddos.

hanging by a thread

well I managed to barely get through my busy week last week, it was really difficult but I made it. I'm still exhausted though and I don't see an end in sight for that. Joe is in the hospital again (he was in for a bit last week) and we don't expect that he'll make it through the next 12 hours.

We've been with him at the hospital all day, he's very weak, his lungs are full of fluid, his heart is very weak and he has a serious infection that is out of control. He's on morphine and oxygen and is very very comfortable right now. We don't expect that he'll regain consciousness though. We hope to get a few hours of sleep tonight and get back to see him in the morning. This has been a long time coming but it still feels strange. I guess you never really know how you're going to feel about something like this until you're in the middle of it.

Monday, September 18, 2006

lovely flowers

lovely flowers
Originally uploaded by Julep67.
aren't they pretty?

gorgeous even!!

they were such a terrific surprise that I almost didn't mind dragging my butt back into work today after working most of the weekend.

the week should go by quickly though, I'm off on Thursday & Friday.


Thursday, September 14, 2006

just fair

so the k-town fair started up today. I heard them testing the polar express the other day so kids will no doubt be able to "go faster" while listening to "welcome to the jungle."

as tradition would have it, it's raining. you can't have a fair without rain, right?

it's supposed to be quite nice tomorrow and saturday though, not something that the k-town fair has had much luck with in recent years. this is good. the sunshine is more than welcome because the really big annual event that I'm working on this weekend could really use some good weather. keep sunny thoughts in your head for saturday if you could, for me...well, up until around 10 p.m. anyway, then it can pour for all I care!!

I'm really pooped tonight, the week has caught up with me. I'm hoping for / expecting a second wind tomorrow. I'll sleep with the windows closed again tonight and hope for the best. I'm looking forward to getting back to a more normal routine in October...I really miss my sleep.

Oh yeah, while I am thinking about it, it's Justin's birthday tomorrow, but I think it is already tomorrow in Melbourne so it's actually right now...Happy Birthday Justin!!

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

don't bee a doobie

Originally uploaded by Julep67.
got to bed early last night.

in bed, teeth brushed, dark room, nice sheets. yay!

the neighbours two doors down who have a band, a band that usually practices on thursday nights, decide to practice.

they were playing doobie brothers songs.

the drummer didn't sound great, when they finished, we clapped. finally sleep.

then they started again and we booed. sleep, please? now!

I closed the windows and fell asleep.

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

alex and ani

alex and ani
Originally uploaded by Julep67.
raccoons fought in the neighbourhood last night.

I know this because they woke me up, twice.

nice huh??

the upside of this was that I got into the office by 6 a.m. this morning.

the downside is that I'm a little sleep deprived at the moment.

the week is ticking away and my head is still mushy. it might explode, but I hope not.

how's your week going?

Monday, September 11, 2006


so we're both really busy working these days. At the moment, I should probably be at the office instead of at home but sometimes, particularly when your brain turns to oatmeal, you need to go home.

Mark and I both worked a large chunk of Saturday. After work, we did errands, yesterday, we got groceries and did chores. As you can tell, we haven't had a lot of quiet time just recently.

Having said all of that, I popped in to see Joe on Wednesday, a totally flying visit, to collect his laundry and say hello. I apologized for the quick-ness of it and promised that we would make some time on Sunday to see him. So yesterday, in the midst of running around and trying to get stuff done (because this week is quite literally my most insane of the year) we go to visit Joe. We have his clean laundry, we have some cookies for him, we're ready to visit. When we get to his room, he's asleep. This isn't a shock, he's frequently asleep when we go to see him. This time though, we woke up long enough to ask us the following:

1. what time is it?
2. why did you wake me?
3. can't we visit over breakfast?

He then basically told us to get lost, which we then did. Nice huh?

I wish I could say I was heart broken but I couldn't. It was nice to go home and veg out for a little bit. Hopefully he won't be heart broken when we don't get over there again this week to see him.

Saturday, September 09, 2006

wrecked room

view of the wrecked room
Originally uploaded by Julep67.
I'm a little tired at the moment.

mark and I both worked this morning, from around 9 a.m. to 1 p.m. I was kind of tired when I got up this morning, I'm dreaming about work a lot. When I got home, I wanted to have a nap but knew that I'd never sleep tonight if I did that.

instead, I went out with Mark and did a couple of errands.

I think we're home for the night. It's the end of frosh week today so it's quite busy out there in the big bad world. home feels good right now.

It's cosy too, the weather has turned a little cool. I don't mind it a bit but it's nice to be inside looking out at it rather than outside, shivering. I have to say, I really enjoy the changing seasons. fall might be extremely busy but it's also still my favourite time of the year.

Friday, September 08, 2006

meet syd

meet syd
Originally uploaded by Julep67.
he's no zoid but he's very nice.

we had no intentions of getting a new betta but there you go. we needed water conditioner and ended up looking at the bettas.

this little guy just looked too cool to pass up (not to mention that he was the most active of the group).

Mark's just finished cleaning and disinfecting the old tank and is getting it ready for Syd to move into.

welcome home Syd!!

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

so long, dr. zoidberg

dr zoidberg
Originally uploaded by Julep67.
our little betta fish, dr. zoidberg passed away today.

he lived in a little tank in our bedroom and was a cool little guy. he had a bit of an attitude at times that, quite frankly, I liked.

we think he had dropsy. over the past few days, we tried to treat it but I guess he was too far gone by the time we noticed that he was feeling crappy.

the weird thing is, every time I've gone into the bedroom since I got home from work, I've walked toward his tank to talk to him or just to say hello.

I'll miss little dr. zoidberg.

he was a very cool fish.

Sunday, September 03, 2006

...which circle of "hell" is this?

I think we're crazy but we had no choice.

After 24 hours of rain, we took advantage of a break in the storm to run some errands. of course, we forgot that everyone and their dog would be out getting the kids ready for school.

It was pretty sick. Fortunately, we got in and out pretty quickly but boy, there are some dumb folks out there. Many of the folks we saw in the stores were walking around like zombies. Perhaps their kids made them that way, what with all of the buying of the school supplies and stuff.

Luckily, I can't think of a thing we need to do outside of the house tomorrow...this is good, really good, because I can't imagine going back out into that again tomorrow!!

Saturday, September 02, 2006

empty lawn chairs

empty lawn chairs
Originally uploaded by Julep67.
it's Saturday morning and I could have slept in this morning.

could of but didn't. I feel rested though, and peaceful.

I can hear the coffee dripping and Mark's still sleeping. the house is pretty quiet, the fishies are all kind of dozy in their tanks right now too.

the forecast for the long weekend isn't terrific but that's okay. I'm heading into the office this morning (after I drop Mark off at work) for a few hours. one of the nice things about being in on the weekend is that usually no one else is around so you can putter at your own pace and play music loudly if you want.

this afternoon though, I'm done with work for the rest of the weekend. it'll be nice to be brain dead for a day or so.

Friday, September 01, 2006

happy september!

how did that happen?

it's September 1 today and I can't believe it. seriously. the summer was just too short. I mean, I know it's the same length that it's always been but August was so cold and dreary, it feels like we were ripped off or something.

oh well, at least there's a long weekend coming up. yay!!